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This is sort of a continuation of my last blog because I had a weird dream that involved, you guessed it (or not, lawls), Edward Cullen. He wasn’t like the one I knew. He was a lesser, more subtle version of the one we know today. And dude, he was pretty cool to talk to. (Do I sound crazy right now or what?!) But I was thinking for an hour in my bed that if he was pretty easy to talk to, he must’ve had some decent personality, right? Then I realised that underneath that extreme ball of extremeness that is Edward Cullen in the Twilight series, there is a boy hidden and he is waiting to come out.

I think I already knew this before because (SURPRISE) Edward was going to be in my story (yes, the one you read yesterday….or whatever). And he was going to be in my story because the story started off as (SURPRISE) a fanfic for the Twilight series. And because I was annoyed with most of the characters, I had decided that I was going to take each one and sort of trim them down and make them over from their original selves so that they’d feel more realistic whenever I wrote them in.

One of the earliest characters I started with was Edward Cullen! :D

As I was working on him I got this KICKBUTT EUREKA moment from him using Carlisle and Bella’s conversation in New Moon.

Edward is religious.
…that’s the genius moment.
Edward Cullen is religious, thus he believes in God, but also believes he is a demon. And whilst we get glimpses of this fact in the book, we don’t get enough of it. I believe if Stephenie Meyer dug deeper into this personal struggle with Edward, focus more on his own vulnerability, we would’ve better sympathise with him and better understand why he acts the way he does. While redrafting his character, I used this as the core of his personality (being that he was only going to be a secondary character) and this is what I came up with.

(….I hope you’re keeping up with this. xD. I’m bad to ramble. :P)

Edward Cullen:

Being a vampire, Edward Cullen has a natural instinct to kill human to satisfy his hunger. This conflicts with his personal belief: “Thou shalt not kill.” He broke this rule in the past as a ‘newborn’ vampire, and killed humans for about a decade (am I getting that right?) But, because this unique individual has an unusually powerful good conscience for a vampire, he only targeted ‘bad guys’. However, killing humans still haunted his conscience so he ultimately tried to stop by feasting only on large animals. Also, being the religious dude that he is, he keeps a Bible. BUT! (Here’s the, “aw, poor Edweird. :|” twist) Because he’s a vampire, whenever he tries to touch the Bible, it burns his hands. (Actually, this could be taken in two ways. Either, “Aww, poor Edward.” which I sympathise with personally because I’m religious in general, or this could be taken as “Dude, stupid Edward.” for those who think vampires should act as vampires and not be touching crosses and Bibles. :D)

Anyways, so the Bible burns his hands. So why does he read it anyway? Why isn’t a belief in God enough for him? Because he’s trying to convince himself that he, too, can be saved even if he is amongst the damned. I have a particular scene drafted of Elsa walking into his room and finding a Bible laid out on his desk with random pieces of papers sticking out here and there and a notepad next to it with paragraphs and words scribbled down on it madly and whole sections crossed out or circled. These notes are basically of him arguing with himself using verses from the Bible as to whether he’s damned to Hell or has a shot at Heaven.

Again, I sympathise greatly with this because the fear of Hell is very real to me. I don’t know how this would come across to others. ^_^

So, Edward’s trying to make up for his “Dark Decade” by practicing self-restraint and being EXTRA GOOOOD. :D. This is why he’s very active in donating to charities and trying to live simply and not being extravagant in his wealth. (Based on his suggestion to give all those clothes to Goodwill in the fourth book-ish) Also, he tries to keep his temper under control so he hardly ever lashes out, which is kind of a bad thing because people need to get his emotions out. He strives to keep his bad temper under control because he’s afraid that if he loses it, his vampire instincts will take over and he’ll end up doing something he’ll regret. Like attacking Elsa in that scene I had drafted which was awesome. Best fight ever. (I LOVE FIGHTS!)

So that’s basically my draft centered around Edward’s religious beliefs. I really wish Smeyer explored him up to this point because I think now you have a character that’s sort of broken. And you can kind of understand why he’s soo freaking emo about his vampireness. Because there’s something wrong with his conscience. It’s too…human. Thus, he strives to be as human as possible. I think the rest of the Cullens should’ve had a vampire conscience and ate humans anyways to further contrast the Edward character. Or maybe Carlisle is the only other one who believes as Edward does, so he’s not so alone. Or maybe he should be incredibly lonely, that’s why he clings onto Bella as a friend. AND MAYBE HE’S THE ONLY ONE WHO ATTENDS SCHOOL BECAUSE HE’S CRAZY! :D

And because he’s so lonely and just wants a friend, he’s sort of manipulative so Bella will stay with him. OH NOES! NOW HE’S TURNING TO THE DARK SIDE! NOO EDWARD! DOOON’T! And that’s why he’s a little obsessive. Because he needs a friend through this struggle!!!! GEEZ! It’s too bad Bella’s atheist! OMG AND HE SHOULD’VE DIED AT THE END ‘CAUSE THAT WOULD’VE BEEN SAD! :((

Grrrr! So what do you think? I should poll this. :D.

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nvm it won’t let me poll it. :|